i used to appreciate profound words

"I want to beg you, as much as i can, to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day to the answers."~ Rainer Maria Rilke

laid off

sigh

so we are all getting the boot and its pretty sad walking the halls at work and seeing the look on everyone's face preparing for what's ahead.

but i am keeping my chin up high. this is a push for me to do bigger and better things and to finally kick myself to strive and be motivated again.

i hope to gain my spirit back.
for now i am just really stressed out about finding another job, especially since im competing with all these exec's who also just got laid off. no more frivolous shopping and lunches out and designer jeans and vacations, boo.

yikes! what will become of me....