speechless

i used to be good with words, i used to yearn to share them with the world, now i avoid them.... tail between my legs and im feeling alone more than ever. hormonal and on the verge of a panic attack at any given moment. somehow i managed to push the people close to me to a dark corner, and soon they won't remember my name. or maybe this is part of becoming older, sifting through, changing, moving on... whatever it is it sucks a lot and i can't help but feel responsible, or irresponsible really. i don't recognize myself when i look in the mirror every day. i can't hear myself, i can't stand the thoughts going through my head, is anyone else annoyed with themselves or is it just me? i'm giving myself a time out. can time stop just for a few hours so i can figure my plan out before it all zooms by me? i should be in a better mood because i have an interview tomorrow and i have to practice my answers to all those lame questions we get asked each time....

looking forward to my wish list, whenever i can afford it.