missing....
every day i wake up and i attempt to make a list of things that i should do for the day and in a daze and boredom, the hours just seem to pass by me and the days drift away. what a waste. i spend most of my time thinking about the way things used to be, and how i wish i can get that feeling back that i experienced at every moment of every day in Dublin. And so i sit and reminisce and dwell on the past. And I wonder... is it possible, to just take off again? I can, I easily can. And I know that the only thing that is stopping me is this whole notion of investing in the future, of setting some sort of career. what's it gonna be; shitty job, grad school, law school? i just know that at the rate that im going at the moment i won't be doing much.
not to sound too negative and miserable, im not... i was. im slowly coming out of this depressing phase and becoming a much more optimistic and carefree person, although not nearly as disinhibited as i felt over the past 6 months. I would do anything to return to my dirty 2 story flat, to my immigrant flatmates, to my favorite 4, to my ever so growing beer belly days. and now my belly is growing and beer has got nothing to do with it!
so i decided to get off my ass, after sitting on the couch for over a month. so im grabbing my junior high harlot and heading up north to my favorite canadian bacon. nothing is set in stone but like always, things seem to work themselves out. so the tentative plan is to head off early next week, hit up northern CA, Portland, Seattle, and final destination is Vancouver baby (and all the cool stuff in between.) I'm excited to let this be a great beginning of my return here in this wonderful country. I also decided to move back to San Francisco so if everything goes to my tentative plan, I will be back with my Oaklandish homies by early October for some super rad times!
so im excited, and ready to start being proactive!
currently reading:
Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky
Less Than Zero by Brett Easton Ellis
Three Comrades by Erich Maria Remarque
not to sound too negative and miserable, im not... i was. im slowly coming out of this depressing phase and becoming a much more optimistic and carefree person, although not nearly as disinhibited as i felt over the past 6 months. I would do anything to return to my dirty 2 story flat, to my immigrant flatmates, to my favorite 4, to my ever so growing beer belly days. and now my belly is growing and beer has got nothing to do with it!
so i decided to get off my ass, after sitting on the couch for over a month. so im grabbing my junior high harlot and heading up north to my favorite canadian bacon. nothing is set in stone but like always, things seem to work themselves out. so the tentative plan is to head off early next week, hit up northern CA, Portland, Seattle, and final destination is Vancouver baby (and all the cool stuff in between.) I'm excited to let this be a great beginning of my return here in this wonderful country. I also decided to move back to San Francisco so if everything goes to my tentative plan, I will be back with my Oaklandish homies by early October for some super rad times!
so im excited, and ready to start being proactive!
currently reading:
Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky
Less Than Zero by Brett Easton Ellis
Three Comrades by Erich Maria Remarque
1 Comments:
You should take off again,your only 23,Still a baby.Whats the point of settling into a career when you have the whole world to see?There, thats my advice to you dear.I hear Cafe Mocha has never been the same since you left.I hope you are ok. I still think about you a lot.
Shane.
Elliser21@yahoo.co.uk
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