sometimes

the world comes tumbling down. your stress professor tells you that if you don't exercise you will die. so you rush to the gym straight after class for an hour of step aerobics. your out of breath. is it time? is this what he was talking about? is this what he meant when he said that every week of exercise lost, is a week lost forever. but sometimes the world tumbles in a different way. sometimes you screw up on an exam. you get a letter of rejection. your favorite tv show is canceled. the hero of the book dies. sometimes other people let you down. you get stood up. they don't apologize. sometimes you have to redefine who your friends are. sometimes you get pushed around. And sometimes you push around. You lose, you cry, you pick your battles. Sometimes your heart gets broken, sometimes its something so profound. Sometimes you get a package in the mail, a big smile on your face. Sometimes you laugh, sometimes you're on the floor with laughter. Sometimes you do some things that are so bad that they're so good. Sometimes you drink, you drink again, again, again, and then again. Sometimes you walk outside your door and notice the building on the other side of the street, its one of the most beautiful buildings you have ever seen. And then the world comes tumbling down again. You frown, you cry, you take a time out. You stay up thinking about where you went wrong. And then you wonder how this all started in the first place.




picture of Cory taken by me